Yesterday’s post was all about doubts and worries. It also contained a solution to my problem: do it once a month.
Well it turns out that this was the solution, and looks like the organisation agrees.
Yaay me!

When is an opportunity good enough to push everything aside?
Here’s my problem: I have an opportunity to take up a radio show for the organisation I am doing work for. Trouble is, irony know how I’m going to fit it in around study and work.
Full time study at school l is 2 days a week, with studu at home to take the same amount of time. That’s 4 days. Add one day working and I’ve only got the weekend left. I guard my weekends passionately; they’re my time and I don’t like things taking away from them. Once a month, fine.
So, today I have to work out if an opportunity really isn’t and I’ll end up resenting it. Perhaps the trick is to know my limitations, and to stand by what I’m physically and mentally capable of doing rather than just throwing everything in and hoping for the.best.
Well, today’s the day I find out…

After a nasty hot night I find myself on the tram to work. I’m slightly tired, and have left the house without my morning cuppa, but have eaten and will be, at most, 10 minutes late.

Tossing and turning last night I tried the fan but found it too loud, more a reflection on my state than its – the over-tired mind wanting, demanding sleep yet not finding it and most likely sabotaging itself with its demands. Foolishly I kept checking email in my half-conscious state, the trap of having a smartphone next to your bed.

But today, instead of cranky, I’ve decided to be at peace with the day and to have a nice one. The wirkplace is pleasant and easy, I’ve got specific things to do and am, if truth be told, dazzling them with my geek credentials; in short, I know how to make their lives easier on a computer.

I also have a lovely partner and things are going rather well. We get along, we communicate well and we support one-another. This is a really good place to be.

So what’s to complain about?

There’s always something, but it’s a first-world complaint. My partner and I won a very schmick smartphone each in the weekend and they’re sitting in a box untouched. We’ve researched and researched, made enquiries of friends and there’s a split down the middle: some are saying “bird in the hand, free, nice phone, well done!’ while others are saying the opposite: ‘it’s android, hard to get used to after an iPhone, why not sell it and get a phone you really like?’

Thing is, it’s like a Christmas present in full view, and I’m getting more and more frustrated about it. I’ve played with the phone and it’s a nice bit of kit. There are some things to get used to, but that’s par for the course. For my partner, the improvements will be manifest: they’ve got an old nokia, a crackberry lookalike, purchased before smartphones really were smart.

The only drawbacks I can see are that the new phone has no front facing camera, it runs android and It’ll be slightly less elegant to sync with the Mac. But is that really worth $300 extra money? I would have to buy a new wallet because the one I’ve got takes my phone; a $16 investment before Christmas 2011. If I spend $300 on an iPhone I get to keep the wallet.

It’s not an apple, which seems the over-arching argument, and therefore less good. But it was free, and worth $500.

Like I said, first world complaints. Maybe I’ll chat with my partner about it tonight.