So, to debrief…

Lost a job today.

Initially I felt like I’d been kicked… over time I constructed excuses, and finally I smiled, calmed myself and learned.

For all the excuses I have — that if they hadn’t started changing the job, we (no, I) wouldn’t have reacted by going all formal on them; that if they hadn’t taken something away, I wouldn’t have felt threatened enough to formalise every little thing — well, these don’t cut ice.

When I analyse this job with a clear mind, with calm thoughts, I find I have learned that:

1. I shouldn’t react so harshly when things are changed. For someone that has just reconstructed her life, this is a bizarre reaction to have.

2. Regardless of my writing background for formal documentation, honed over 10 years of writing dry, soulless computer manuals for IT companies, I should take things a little lighter when writing for clients.

3. I don’t know what I don’t know. Learning is a part of the great game of life…

A time will come when I laugh about this… just so long as the lessons have been learned.

The company M and I are creating have a basic belief structure: Clear, unambiguous and friendly. I think I was clear and unambiguous, but too late in the game, and friendly when things were going my way, but hostile when they weren’t.

The world turns, and I learn new things.